Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Natalie's 5!
Yesterday was Natalie's 5th birthday. Since her party isn't till Sunday we have her one present and her cards. At school every monday they sing happy birthday to all the kids who have birthdays that week so I stayed to see that which was very nice. After the kids got out of school we went bowling for a bit. The kids are on bowling leagues every saturday but Matthew has been missing the last two weeks since he's taking a dinosaur class. While he made up some games Natalie & I bowled. We had fun but the kids were rushing to get home to see the puppies we got. We picked up Daddy from work and went home where he cooked hot dogs on the grill. Natalie had ballet class and then everyone went to bed. It was a nice birthday, she can't wait till Sunday.
| posted at 9:26 AM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Pretty Pretty Princess
Today Natalie went to a birthday Tea party for a little girl she takes ballet with. The invitation said wear your dress up dress, shoes and hats so Natalie picked out what she wanted to wear and looked so beautiful! They had juice in little ceramic cups and ate cake. Natalie kept asking me if she could have tea and when I said they didn't have tea she was quick to remind me it's a tea room, they do have tea. Haha. It was a quick party and then off to pick up Daddy from work. She looked so gorgeous, I just couldn't stop taking pictures of her.
| posted at 6:36 PM
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Holding back the tears
Today Natalie is going on a field trip with her class to the library and then to McDonald's for a snack. Yesterday she asked if she could ride with me (they don't have buses so the parents volunteer to drive the kids). I had already planned on going on the field trip. This morning I woke up and rushed around to get both kids fed and ready for school, rushed Matthew to school and came back home to get myself ready and then rushed up to Natalie's school. Once we got there Natalie said "you need to take my carseat in." I told her that I was going and she was riding with me, which is what she told me she wanted last night. As we get into the class she starts whining and saying "I don't want to go with you." She starts crying so I say to her "you don't want mommy to go?" and she says no. I went out to the car to get her carseat and put it in the hall. I told the teacher it was there and just reminded Natalie I wouldn't be on the field trip, I didn't want to pick her up from school and have her asking me where I was so I was reminding her. She says ok, I asked again "do you want me to go?" to which she answered no. I left and called Jeremy on the way home. I told him that she didn't want me to go as I held back the tears. I was so hurt. So here I am at home feeling like I should be there, I mean that's why I'm a stay at home mom so I can take them to school, go on the field trips and be with them. I know she's young and doesn't understand all the adult stuff but it just hurts that she doesn't want me there. I went on the last field trip (which she rode with someone else even though I wanted her to ride with me) and she practically ignored me the whole time which hurt also. So on the way home I decided that I'm going to start doing things for me. I have totally dedicated my everything to Matthew and Natalie and haven't done anything for me so I'm going right now to call the community college in my area and find out about going back to school. I love my kids with all my heart and want nothing more than to be with them, watch them grow up but today I realized that they won't always want me there and then what will I do? I need to take care of me too! Wish me luck.
| posted at 10:22 AM
